"Closure"

I.
it seems that i like to hear harshness
i'm almost addicted to provoking
harshness out of you

it's not enough that i know it
and i that feel it
i like hearing the words
i do not love you
hearing them tear my insides
feeling them travel down my throat into my belly
up to my heart
and dissolve in my blood

i then like to cut myself
and watch the blood seep
out of me. out of you.

II.
i used to have this notion of love
where love wasn’t harsh
where my heart would skip a beat
to beat with your heart
and together, heart-to-heart
we’d beat the harshness
out of you. out of me.