once upon a stony sunset

there are relative truths and then there are absolute truths. for me, there are only relative truths. this morning when i woke up, what i wished for was a saviour of sorts. an up-and-goer, who would say to me, “j, i’ve made some arrangements, pack a bag. we leave in a week”. “where to”, i ask bewildered, as the adventure-ess in me is near dead. “ok, so this is the plan. we’re going to go to himachal. i’ve saved up a little money to get us started. we’ll teach in exchange for food. and we’ll just explore. three months, and then we can re-return to what we’ve satisfied ourselves with. but i think three months is important enough.”

i’ve slept like a sweet little baby for the past two nights. mostly because danielle was on the day shift (alas, it ends today). so i’ve discovered the reasons for my sleeping problems. i can’t sleep alone. in some sense, it’s good, cause who knows, at a later stage in life, it may be a full-time thing, and i might as well get used to it. wait! that’s not a jaya way of thinking. let’s just bury that thought for now. (how i envy people who are so damn content just being with themselves – but do they really exist?)

i was talking to rishi (and nash) the other night, about human dynamics. my stance remains that people cannot be understood. i think a lot of my stance has to do with nashpaul. i have failed so miserably at understanding him that i’ve given up on understanding people completely. i don’t think i’m too wrong in saying that, but ya, my perspectives of right and wrong, slut-e and and saint-e have gone for a random walk. i think i understand everyone i’ve met before him.

many light years ago, there was a great kingdom, the kingdom of busa. the kingdom had a strange quadruple structure. quadruple. n. a quantity that is four times as great as another. v. increase fourfold. a. having four units or components, four times as great or many.

there were two streams running through the kingdom, dividing it into four parts….